It’s been a long minute since I’ve posted on my blog, and I have to be honest to tell you that I began to doubt myself. I allowed fear to enter my heart and became embedded in the sludge of self doubt. I couldn’t seem to pull my foot up out of the sludge to take my next step. Wallowing in self pity only made it worse, until I confessed it to some very supportive ladies in my life (you know who you are), and they reminded me that I can’t allow fear to steal my joy in sharing my life with others. I cannot shut down parts of my soul that need to be opened.
I am learning that fear can manifest itself in two main ways in my life. First, it can keep me from stepping out of something that is broken. Secondly, fear can keep me from stepping into something new. Fear immobilizes my feet and causes me to become frozen in inactivity.
The fear of rejection becomes greater than rejection itself. The fear of failure becomes greater than the failure itself. The fear of embarrassment becomes greater than the embarrassment itself. I must move against this fear because fear is just False Evidence Appearing to be Real. It’s not even the truth!
When I allow fear to be the loudest voice I hear, I find myself stuck in that mud. To get out, I must hold on to the truth of God’s Word, “Jesus looked at them and said, “With man this is impossible, but with God all things are possible.” Matthew 19:26 (NIV).
So okay, I am back! I am listening to God’s voice and have the support of my sisters to keep me moving forward, one step at a time!
Father, Empower me with Your strength when fear starts to speak loudly, so loudly that I can’t hear Your voice. Let me hear and listen to Your confident, loving voice, and be secure in the fact that with You in my life, fear doesn’t even have a chance. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.